On immersion and overwhelm..
Hi stranger.. 😏
Sorry I have been MIA.. I am in the grips of this 200 hour Yoga Teacher Training and learning fast that learning is hard, maybe learning in your 40s is hard or maybe it’s just hard.
I have just started week 6 of content and have so far completed at least 62 hours of lecture or practice work.. that’s not including the many minutes inevitably pausing, rewinding and rewatching in hope that a concept will land. It is wildly hard and wildly satisfying. Its pretty cool, to feel how my 23 years as a movement teacher has set me up to click with a lot of the content.
That has been great for my self esteem but I am bone tired. My brain is stuffed to the brim, my body has had enough of my bullshit and somehow, I just have to keep going for another 10ish weeks. Send help!
I always knew this process would be all consuming for a period; that everything else would need to take a back seat while I really focus in but honestly, I am struggling with the lack of blank space between 5/7am and 6pm.. and anyone who knows me, will know that I am pretty useless after 6pm.. except on a friday night when I dig incredibly deep to teach my 6:30pm class at Notting Hill!
This morning I have been learning about the feet and lower legs, then onto a practice of Push Down Arm Balances.. which my body is not naturally set up for well.. so there was much short term frustration, a couple of face-plants and a lot of letting it be and acceptance that short arms/ heavy muscle mass and tight hips do not equal to a graceful Bhujasana.. don’t send me flowers, I am okay with it 😂
I am about to head to therapy with my daughter, I can’t say I am relishing the idea today; things have been tense this week and she loves to use this time to unleash on me, I am tired/ pre-menstrual and have my own beef to lay out but the bandwidth is low. You know those days where you just don’t really have it in you? It’s one of those!
I am hanging on for dear life to 6 days off just after my birthday! I feel like such a cliche.. just need to get to point A and everything will be fine! ha!
I feel like in around a month I am going to want to start practice teaching on a handful of close and trusted friends. While I have many years of movement teaching under my belt, teaching yoga is a very different style and I have lots of technique to learn and to learn to communicate in easy to digest ways and I think the only way to do it, is to do it. So watch this space, when I have a clearer idea of when I will be prepared enough to do this, I will reach out to garner interest. (In the interest of accessibility, this will no doubt be on zoom!)
WATCH
I recently watched Zaos on Netflix; more utter bonkerness but I loved it and was gutted to read than Netflix will not be bringing it back for a second season but still worth a watch!
READ
Guys.. I am reading Wicked and honestly it flips between being a complete car crash and being really compelling. I feel like much of the lewd sexuality is completely not relevant to the story, which in it’s own right is really powerful.
LISTEN
It will be no surprise to you that I am overstimulated right now, so there hasn’t been much listening to music for the sake of listening to music but on my TO LISTEN TO list is In The Blue Light by Kelela which is a collection of her music unplugged.
PRACTICE
Thurs 13th, 7am/ Soulcycle Notting Hill
Thurs 13th, 10am/ Soulcycle Soho/ Soul & Meditate 🧘♀️
Your usual 45 Minute class with a touch more focus on breath awareness and the Mind<>Body Connection followed by an optional 10 minute meditation AFTER the stretch!
Fri 14th, 9:30am/ Soulcycle Notting Hill/ Hip Hop Friday 🔥
Fri 14th, 6:30pm/ Soulcycle Notting Hill/ Girls Night Out: Galentine’s Party! 🌹
Sun 16th, 11:45am/ Soulcycle Soho/ Sunday Sanctuary 🕯️🕯️🕯️
This is my baby. High energy, with a big emphasis on grounding the mind, body and soul. A big inhale/ exhale and reset.
Mon 17th, 9:30am/ Soulcycle Notting Hill
Mon 17th, 12:30pm/ Soulcycle Soho
Tues 14th, 7am/ Soulcycle Notting Hill
Tues 14th, 10am/ Soulcycle Soho/ Soul & Meditate 🧘♀️
Thank you for being here, have a wonderful week!
Big Love,
Melissa xoxo